Over whelmed!

I never knew it would be so hard to be a father, there’s so many things I wasn’t ready to deal with.

I used to wake up every morning and look forward to hearing and seeing my kids, but since they started becoming more grown up and becoming young adults I feel like I am so over my head, and the confusion gets deeper into my cerebral.

Having to deal with different emotional types, and different attitudes. I don’t want to be verbally, or physically abusive, but when you have children testing you every step of the way, it gets frustrating and emotional draining.

When they are born, and you’re holding them in your arms, you promise to never let any harm come to them, but what about if you feel shut out because they keep violently lashing out, but they don’t come to you.

I am so confused that I can’t make it right. Don’t know what I am doing, or did wrong. Every day I feel like I should just give it all up, because I don’t know what the hell I am doing.

When your kids are little, life is carefree and you don’t worry about much, yeah sure their safety, but when they become teens, you worry about their mental health and stability, and trying to protect your other kids in the household.

I’m at the point of having a nervous break down. I can’t describe how I am feeling right now, but I don’t want to feel like this anymore.

My mother once said that I was a great father, but now a days I question myself, very much.

I am not able to maintain a stable home for my family because I am to passive, until I’ve had enough and then I explode.

Honestly I don’t feel that I am stable mentally to be a father.

I have to share my thoughts because if I don’t it will eat away at me.

Kori Martin!